Fairy Tales do come true!

Growing up I would watch 'romance' movies and hope that one day someone would love me like that. With the house I lived in and what money I 'didn't' have, guys didn't go for girls like me. And if a guy liked me it was usually to get some. I honestly didn't think that what I have now was ever in my future. 

The relationship between my husband and I has been tested, over and over again.  He can tell when my mood changes, when I'm having a low day...no matter how hard I try to conceal it.  I guess that's what happens when you're with someone for almost 18 years.  

I wonder sometimes what I would be like, who I would be, if it wasn't for Todd in my life.  On the other hand, I don't even want to think about it.  He is my saving grace everyday.  To have someone in my life who loves me so much makes me want to be a better person.  We bring out the best, and sometimes worst in each other...but it makes life interesting!  There were so many moments when I wanted to give up, throw in the towel...I'm done.  But then I think of Todd and the boys, the future we will be blessed with and I start to breathe again.  He's the breath of air I need to take when I'm drowning.  

When we met I instantly saw something true, kind and loving.  He wasn't like the rest of the guys.  He was the first to treat me with respect.  Every other guy I met did not hold me in high esteem. My high school days were one of the worst times in my life.  Miserable.  I felt worthless.  I remember the day we started dating and finally he asked me to be his wife.  My fairytale actually came true.  

I don't think he knew what was in the future for us.  If he did would he still have fell in love with me and married me?  That's what love is, well what I believe a part of it to be.  Loving someone unconditionally, despite their flaws.  We do that for one another.  He has his moments and I certainly have mine.  I find myself asking more often than not "Why is he with me?", "He could do so much better."  But then I think about all we've been through and my questions are answered.

Bipolar and depression are just pure darkness that can rip apart any relationship, no matter how strong.  We've survived and fought to keep our love strong.  I literally wouldn't be alive today if it wasn't for him.  This mental illness has taught us many lessons and has strengthened our relationship.  Living with Bipolar isn't easy for the individual who has it.  It gets even harder when family is involved.  For loved ones who are trying to understand, it's difficult.  And it's different from person to person.  There's no magic book that will tell you the answers or a pill that will make it all go away.  You have to accept it...and so does everyone in your life.  Just keep hope and faith strong...fairytales can come true.